Today I am calmer as the magnitude of my thoughts yesterday
needed to be grounded less I transcended into the cosmos
or went utterly mad! (I find it quite curious that we
seem to be having powerful experiences at the same time...but
I guess there are many of us out there who are surging
through our emotions into new understandings!)
I can’t tell you how powerfully I was taken through
some porthole into a new pasture yesterday. It was as
if my eyes and my heart were thrusted into a new awareness...
one so magnificent yet so simple.
I have begun to give myself to the organic... begun to
focus my awareness on the beauty that lies all around
me... begun my investigation on what is believed to be
know about nature... and begun to remember how to commune
with it. Through these first tentative steps it welcomed
me with gifts that penetrated straight into my heart.
I don’t know if I can put these into words or if
it is too precious for that… and maybe it is up
to each of us to come to this when we are ready... or
perhaps I have reached some kind of insane delusion...
if so I don’t mind as it is an amazing trip.
I felt ....uummm... nature... the world... the universe...
is comprised of some immense energy... this energy is
everything and its continuous journey is one of creative
evolution... the evolution continues and never for a second
stops. Nothing is ever an exact replica as this would
be a constant and not an evolution... and the energy has
no need to be on a constant as it would then just go around
in one circle... the circle instead is always growing
or contracting or bouncing into one or many more... or
doing all of this and much more at the same time. We are
at the edge of evolution and are bursting forward into
unknown territory... but we are not alone. We are doing
this simultaneously with the rest of the universe.
Perhaps one can say that there is no other...unknown heaven...
as we are heaven… we are God... together with everything
else... as we are all part of this 'Eternally Creative
Intelligence'... we are just one minute manifestation
of it... but each of us is a unique manifestation... which
perhaps accounts for our feeling of separation. As our
essence comprises of this creative energy we can do nothing
but grow... and grow in numerous directions. We also need
to be constantly filled with other manifestations of this
energy… hence why we need to eat... this helps us
evolve... as we need to release... to help other manifestations
evolve! This runs of course on many levels.
Our desire is creative new experiences and expressions....this
perhaps is the desire of everything and is the only underlying
rule but as we are part of everything we need to realise
that it is always a balance.... our actions will always
ripple into the universe... it will always colour the
cycles. Perhaps this is why fashion is always changing...
as our houses... cars... haircuts... philosophies... religions...
cultures... men... women... knifes... bowls... everything...
as our desire wants to achieve new levels... heights...
modes of expression. The question of course is...are we
as humans taking into account how our expressions and
creativity is colouring the rest of this planet? Do we
truly understand the impact?
Are we content with the direction we are taking... and
have we all really become so arrogant as to think we are
higher manifestations of 'God' or this energy? The fact
that I am writing this gives me hope. And like that first
creature that took the first immense breath out of the
water so many millions of years ago I believe that it
is possible that our evolution will take another momentous
turn. This octopus that has developed is self destructing...
we are at the edge of evolution... it is a momentous thought...
we are life... God ...at the fore front of the big bang...
bursting forward... so how can suicide be so prevalent?????
Is it because this course is a spiral to destruction and
the energy that lies within those is too constricted by
it...so finds no other means to escape.
Surely the way forward is to use our intelligence and
creativity in conjunction with all other manifestations
of this energy...(nature) and from then learn... as if
all the medicines that we need do not lie in the plants
and animals… or the earth or the sea or the sun
or the moon... how have we forgotten to have faith in
this... how can we believe that it is about the chemical
compounds and not the combination of the chemicals and
the life force that lies invisibly within... the compounds
alone will surely only possibly cure illnesses on a superficial...
maybe physical level... but cannot cure the illness wholly.
And have I been shitting so much because I have been releasing
so much negativity from my soul...that this has physically
Okay this is obviously only a small part of what I have
been contemplating but I guess you get the idea.... I
shall continue later as it is dark outside and I am still
scared of the ghoulies!!! I love you.